On My Mind.

Welcome to the space inside my head 🙂

Manifesting My Destiny

I’ll never forget how I felt when I heard my manager say “It’s clear you don’t like your job here.” My heart exploded into one hundred pieces. That statement couldn’t have been further from the truth about what I was experiencing. My daughter was almost a year old, and the post-partum depression and anxiety wasContinue reading “Manifesting My Destiny”

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Reflecting on Recovery

Well, today is my last day at Skyland Trail. It’s hard to believe I’ve been in the program for nearly three months. When I first checked in to the residential program, I was scared, confused, and had been in a rough manic episode for the past few months leading up to February. When I arrived,Continue reading “Reflecting on Recovery”

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Getting Back on the Wheel

I still remember the first assignment. It was my first semester in Ceramics in college, and I was super excited to get muddy. After watching a demo on the wheel for the first class (he made it look so easy!) , we were instructed to create 10, 6-inch cylinders; which we would then cut inContinue reading “Getting Back on the Wheel”

The Vessel

‘We are all broken, that’s how the light gets in’ My body is a vessel. It has changed a lot over the past 35 years, but it has always been mine. When I was young, I was ‘thin and spindly’ as my mother said. Shy and withdrawn, my vessel felt awkward. My legs were tooContinue reading “The Vessel”

Another Break in the Wall

It’s hard to say when my ‘episode’ first started, but it seems like my mental state really started to deteriorate around the summer time, after the Grady incident. I started having incredibly difficult panic attacks, and I was also in a deep depressive state.

Fun in Grady Psych Ward.

Welp, it’s been over 8 years, but I managed to make it back to the psych ward Friday night, this time at Grady Hospital. Luckily this time I made it out in less than 24 hours, ONLY because of the fact that I have been WORKING MY ASS off to get better resources to manageContinue reading “Fun in Grady Psych Ward.”

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Nourishing Ourselves.

So, last month was focused on the theme ‘nourishment’. It was broken down into four categories – Physical, Mental, Emotional, and Spiritual. Throughout the month, the journaling and exploratory process brought about the following summary of what’s been happening in my life for the past 34 years. One of the questions was, ‘which category do you neglect’. Lately? Physical, duh. The more I unraveled this idea, the further back I was taken, and the more insight I received.

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Where I’m at today.

Ohhhh man, okay this has been a work in progress for quite some time, but I’ve realized it will always be that, and it’s okay. This is not for a client, or business, or prospect, or someone I am trying to impress. IT IS FOR ME! It is so I can express myself in an authentic way.

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Distracted, Looking for Jobs.

I have been ‘working’ at PCM, feeling pretty good. It’s been a little more than a week and a half since I started the new meds, and honestly it is like

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Feeling That Funk.

Most days, I wake up with a million things to do that I am excited about. Being home with Mila has been great for the most part. I’m working on this blog, I’m doing some Salesforce Trailhead tutorials, growing my

The Struggle is Teal

The last 6 years have been, to say the least, CHALLENGING for me, and with all of the recent events surrounding our country and world, it’s easy to get sucked into depression.  I try and stay positive, but it can be difficult.  I feel like most people I’m close with don’t really understand what I’mContinue reading “The Struggle is Teal”

About Me

Hi, I’m Jeni. In 2012 I experienced a mental health episode that launched a quest into understanding my mind, body, and soul. It’s been a wild ride, and I have found that journaling, meditating, and participating in spiritual rituals has helped me process my trauma, heal my wounds, and finally begin to shine my authentic light.

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